So it’s Wednesday

As can be expected, I’ve not gained….nor lost any weight in a day.

YaY!

Lol, however, I will say that The Wonder One and I last night finished off the last of his decadent fudge.  There wasn’t much after having filled five tins to be sent to the far reaches of where they need to go and he looks at me and says “You know, we should just go ahead and eat it all tonight, that way it’s done.”  Of course I let him twist my arm into it (ouch ouch ouch)  and we did as we watched Hugh Jackman in Wolverine *sighhhhhh* .  It was definitely a guilty pleasure to be enjoyed.  Which I did, knowing it would be a lonnngggg time before I’d be doing it again, which I can live with.

Today, I’m going to the lab to have blood drawn because next week I go back to the doctor for a follow up regarding my diabetes.

When this all started what I wanted was to get healthy.  If I lost weight and got slimmer in the process, well then, yay me!  But back then when I weighed in at my most (286 lbs) I was having to inject 80 units of insulin a day as well as take a plethora of oral medications.  Well, after having lost the weight I have, even with putting some of it back on, I’m down to 26 units of insulin a day! YAY me!  Being a type  II diabetic means a few things for me.  Getting the weight off means that I can possibly get off the medications, but I have to get the weight off first.  It’s a daily struggle, that being said, I have bad weeks.  There are times when I don’t take my meds at all. I’m working on that along with my weight.  It’s all a process.  

I will have considered myself successful if I can get to a manageable weight (note I said manageable?) that I can maintain for the rest of my life and be drug free from all of my diabetes medication at the same time.  

This is truly about getting healthy, whether I like it or not.

Beyond frustrated...

With having lost the weight that I have and making the necessary adjustments that I have to my insulin that I have, the one thing that I wasn't expecting this past week was a gain.  Especially a significant gain like I got.

A 9 pound gain.

Pick your chin up.

I know I had to.

I was stunned too.

This has been a week that has put the Wonder One to the test that's for certain.  Twice my sugar has bottomed out on me.  Once I had to go to the Emergency Room because of it.  No, they didn't do anything for me except feed me.  Asshats.  I'm not so much amused with them at the moment.  The normally stellar service that they normally provide just wasn't there.  That's a rant for another day. 

Today it's about that 9 pound reversal.

The past few weeks I've been weak, not feeling well, haven't been able to get to the gym and just all around feeling blah.  The Wonder One and Queenie (one of my biggest cheerleaders by far) are both in agreement, that it's most likely water weight.  I go next week to follow up with the doc regarding taking the water pills he had me on.  But holy cow (no pun intended there) NINE pounds worth of water weight?! 

Both Queenie and the Wonder One assure me not to worry, I'll get back to the gym soon enough.  I'm still eating according to plan, just not working out like I want.  Once I get to doing that, it'll all jive soon enough.

I'm just so tired.

And sick, and sick of being sick and tired.

I thought that was what doing all this was about?  And now to put back on a third of what I've taken off?

Very discouraging indeed.

While taking a leap forward...

As you can guess and have heard, after all, it's been on the news, being so overweight has its drawbacks.  As a matter of fact can you seriously think of a benefit to being overweight?  Not just overweight, but obese?  Yeah, me neither.

Matter of fact, what it will cost you to be over weight I've found out is poor health.  So much so you, or in my case, I have ended up hospitalized.  A higher cost of living as evidenced with multiple prescriptions to name a few:  Lantus (insulin), Actos, Glucophage I could go on, however these three drugs are the ones directly related to the one disease I am personally intimately dealing with on a daily basis and that is Diabetes.

Diabetes, in case you didn't know it, can take your vision, your circulation, your limbs and for you men out there, your willies.  Yeah, it can kill your libido.  In addition to having diabetes, you run the risk of having hypertension when you have diabetes.  That affects your kidneys and your heart.

Pretty much your life as you know it.

Sucks don't it?

Sounds like a good reason to get off your ass doesn't it?

Sounds like an even better reason to move it if you have a family with these issues.

These things do run in families.  Look at your parents.  Look at their parents.  Now look in a mirror.

I wish I had done it years ago.

I'm just glad that I finally did.

My doctor had me on my highest dose ever of my insulin.  80 units a day.  Granted it was split up over the course of the day.  Prior dosages weren't working, so for some reason doing a loading dose at night and then a sustaining dose during the day seemed to be working well to bring my sugar levels under control.

However, now that I'm getting close to 10% of my body weight being gone, which the professionals will tell you is all you need to do to bring these life changing diseases under control, my sugars are starting to drop on me.  So much more so that my insulin has been decreased!  YaY me!

This is probably just as good of news to me as seeing the scale move if you want the truth.  So instead of 80 units a day it's 70, and that's a pretty good number.

For now.

I'll be happy when the doctor tells me I won't need any.