The funniest thing...

The funniest thing being that it was ironic, not that it was ha ha funny, was that I went to pay a visit to a friend's blog.  I hadn't been there for a while and I was struck by how raw a post she had done was.  We had pretty similar back grounds.

I was leaving a comment for her and for her right now she's dealing more with recovery, recovery of her own and her parent's recovery (even though they are deceased....there's a certain amount of recovery a child goes through when dealing with abuse and bringing together the child inside with the adult that now is)  it's a difficult concept to explain unless you've lived it.

So as I was leaving my comment I realized that I too am in recovery of sorts.  I've stated on the rare occasion that I am a recovering alcoholic.  While a true recovering alcoholic who has hit rock bottom would say "nope, you're not"....others who have been in my situation would say I am.  When I can talk more about this particular subject, I will.  Trust me.  You'll know it.

As for this particular recovery that I am in....I am in recovery right now.  The reason I say that is because I'm learning how to live again, I'm having to learn how to eat properly, I'm having to learn how to deal with my emotions because let's face it.  There is still the odd occasion where I don't know how to deal with my emotions so I will turn to my two best friends.....you know the guys....Ben?  Jerry?  So I feel like that leaves me in a recovery state.  I've taken off a lot of weight.  I still have a lot to go.  I do not want to go back to where I was.  Ever.

But then you pick yourself up, you collect yourself and you look to see where you need to go to move forward to walk away from where you were to be away from it. Right now you have to realize it's okay to not necessarily know where you're going, just to know that you're not going back to where you were. Be resolute in that knowledge. That. Is the most important thing.

That.  Is the most important thing.

Funny Monday

It's been a while since I've posted a funny on Monday............personally I think this would be much funnier if it didn't hit so close to home.

But that's just me.

Blasting in my ears right now...

The past few weeks I've had a few songs blasting in my ears and I've gotten them (thankfully) onto the pod and into my playlist rotation to help the workout go a bit more fun and funky.  Hope you enjoy and have some fun!

As is my usual custom I like to mix it up with my music and have some old with the new.  One of the songs from my youth that we loved to dance to at the bars is an (now at least) oldie but a goodie!

No product review today...

It's been a busy week getting back on track.  Next week I'll have a product review.  This week has been one where I've been in the doctor's office twice, reorganizing my desk (hooking up a new printer & monitor) and just moving forward from falling off track.

So I thank you for sticking with me as I regain my footing.

Cheers!

It's Wednesday...

Well it's the dreaded weigh in day...

I think things are finally getting back to normal because I was a big fat LOSERRRRRR! lol

Given that over the past 7 weeks or so my weight has gone up and down more than a roller coaster it's nice to breathe a sigh of relief when the numbers are going down.  Now let's just hope that they'll be going down again next week! lol

However, I have good reason to refocus, The Wonder One and I have encouraged/inspired Queenie and The Wonder One's brother (Queenie and his brother are married for those keeping score) with The Wonder One's success (and mine too, marginal though they are) and so they are going on Weight Watchers as well.

So let the competition (unspoken though it is) begin! lol Which to be honest is going to help me tremendously, with The Wonder One having met his goal, I don't have anyone to compete with on a weekly basis, so it gets kinda lonesome when I weigh in, so it'll be nice to have that friendly rivalry with Queenie.

We'll have to have some sort of friendly stakes set up.  She's not needing to lose much and I have a lot more to go, especially since I had my set back there for *gasps* oh my nearly two months!  Yes, yes indeed I'm glad for the company!

Welcome aboard Queenie, enjoy the ride!

Something to think on...

A friend of mine posted this on her Facebook page and of course I had to steal it (she knows I'm stealing it, so is it then really stealing....) and share it with you cheerleaders because I want your input....

So do me a favor and chime in and give me your feedback because I'd really like to know.

It's Wednesday...

So here we are in the new year.  I'm sure all of us has made some resolutions and some of you have already broken them.  Some I know don't even make them to begin with due to the fact that they've had such a terrible time in the past to keep them.

For me, that's where I fit in, I don't usually make them because I have such a difficult time keeping them.  This year I thought I'd try a different approach.  My resolution this year was to learn how to swim.  Yep, you read it correctly, learn. To. Swim.

I'm sure you're wondering how it came to be that I've reached the age I am and don't know how to swim.  Well, you see, when I was five years old, I nearly drowned.  I'm not fearful of water, as a matter of fact I find it very calming.  However the two that contributed to my DNA felt that after that experience, I probably shouldn't learn to swim because I'll probably be to afraid of it.  The only time I'm afraid of the water is when I went with The Wonder One last summer up to Alum Creek State Park and got into the water and then my feet went out from under me.  I completely panicked and totally spazzed out.  I think however it was just panic mode that caused me to freak out the way I did.  Normally I'm just not one to panic.  That time however was different.

So here I am now wanting to make sure that, that never happens again.  As well I figured it would be good exercise which I need more of, as well as to help me get over my fear of going on a cruise.  No, I'm not ever planning on taking a cruise.  Personally, being locked onto a moving city with no place to go (in between ports of course) and not being able to see land (that's what I've determined to be my biggest fear, is not seeing land) is not my idea of a good time.  Nothing against those of you who do love to go on cruise's, it's just not for me.  I know, I know, how do I know it's not for me if I've never been on one.  Well let's just say it goes back to that thing about wanting to be able to see land.  However if it should come to pass that I want to learn shuffleboard and play bingo with the blue hairs, then in 20-40 years, I may consider it.  Until then, I'll just learn to swim and be happy with that.

So the swimming it is.  For the experience of learning something new.  To help expand my exercise routine and to not freak out should I lose my footing in the water. 

It's something I need to do because this week I was not a loser but a little bit of a gainer.  Which is okay, I think the holidays finally caught up to me to put me at 255.  I can live with that because we're in a new year and things are going to go smoothly.


I hope.